You brought back my love for writing. I never imagined I would do this again, nor I imagined I would have the same thing in return. And you did.
First day I talked with you, I knew something is brewing up. Your sincerity and openness gave me the ‘kilig’ feels once again. The way you tell your stories, and your cuteness is the best pairing I’ve witnessed in a long time. You are God’s gift to my humanity. I asked you out, and you said ‘sure’. And I immediately asked God, “Lord, ano susuot ko?” (By the way, expect lots of confessions on my write ups.) My brother once told me after I became single, “Next time, be at your best.” And I took that to heart. Days before we met, I scouted ‘what to wear on your first date’. I went to a barber shop for a haircut that will make me look human. And of course, I had my beard & mustache trimmed and shaved. That’s how serious and complicated it was.
We decided to meet at Capitol Commons (or did I solely decide on that?). On my mind, I’ll bring you to The Wholesome Table for dinner. It’s one of my favorite restaurants, and I know you’ll have good choices. I stayed in Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, decided to work there while I wait for you. Because of the nature of my work, I went there ahead of time. I brought my work, sat near the wall, and just started working. At the back of my head, I am so anxious, worried on your reaction once you meet me. I’m not the ‘pogi’ type of guy, not even tall enough to be considered an adult. Those were my insecurities, and I’m worried I would not meet your expectations. Nonetheless, I pushed forward.
It was 7 o’clock. I was worried you would ditch me. And I was preparing for a heartbreak, even though I haven’t met you yet. Time passed by, my coffee turned to taste like Milo, and you sent me a message. You were on your way. My heart started pumping faster. I didn’t know what to say first, how to open the conversation, what to tell, what to think. I was dead nervous. And then, it was near 9 o’clock. I got worried where you were, so I decided to pack up and walk around.
“God bless me”, I uttered that short prayer. And as I was walking, I saw a lady with her phone by her ears. She was trying to call someone. And I thought, it wasn’t you because I’m not receiving any call. You looked straight at me. Pointed your phone at me. “Natameme ako.” That’s the exact term to use for that moment. God, is she the lady I’m dating tonight? You walked to my direction, and told me I was not answering my phone. I showed you my phone, got no calls. And that’s how God moved that night. He made a way for us to have a good laugh, and be comfortable with each other.
As we were walking, I couldn’t help myself but look at you. I couldn’t stop asking God, “Lord, siya ba talaga?” And God bless the Philippines, I have to step up and be a man. You are one good-looking, pretty woman.
Everything seems to be in order. The stories we shared. The doggo experiences we’ve had. The people we dated. The events our childhood had taught us. The love of our families. The people who waited for us to finish our food. Kudos to that moment.
It was our first date. It was the first time I met you. And as the song says,
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I’m feelin
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I’ve gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you
It began that day and it was worth the wait.